twenty-fourth breath ✧ voice/action

[musubi]

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Sso.

So.

Firs'... a salute, no - toast, to th'fine men an' women curren'ly serving in the draft. Hats off, motherfuckers.

[Isamu has been holed up since the draft started. Clearly, he hasn't been doing anything productive.]

Should've... should've fuckin' volunteered, maybe.

...Had a second point. Forgot what it was.

[Action is open to the few people who might want to make this their business.]

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

Bullshit. That wasn't your fault. And... an' if it was, then it was my fault too.

You're not the one that did the yelling. That was me. Alllll me.

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[ledbythewind]

But I was the one who initiated the entire thing in the first place. That's why it's my fault.

[He should have KNOWN better, dammit.]

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

An' I could've told you to shove it, but I didn't. S-so shut up!

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[ledbythewind]

He trusted me, and how did I repay that trust? By--

[He feels disgusted with himself.]

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

Look...

Look.

I didn't make this post for you to... to feel worse. Stop it.

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[ledbythewind]

Did you think I would just sit back and allow you to do this to yourself without saying anything?

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

I didn't...

I... wasn't thinking about it.

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[ledbythewind]

[Richard is quiet for a moment.]

... I didn't mean to blame you. I'm sorry.

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

No, goddammit! You should!

You should fucking blame me. Maybe you'll feel fucking better if you do.

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[ledbythewind]

[He bites his lip until it bleeds, trying to keep himself from yelling.]

And what will that accomplish? Do you really think that hurting you even more will make me feel better? Am I that much of a cruel person in your eyes?

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

Of course not. Don't be stupid.

...Stop trying to out-angst me!

[The sad thing is, he says this in all seriousness.]

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[ledbythewind]

[Richard inhales, almost as if he's about to argue... then exhales in a long, slow sigh.]

We really are a mess.

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

...Thought that was par for the course.

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[ledbythewind]

How are you doing so far?

[You know, besides the obvious "drunk off my ass" part.]

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

That's... a really stupid question, Richard.

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[ledbythewind]

At least allow me to ask.

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

...Better'n you, according to Sanji.

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[ledbythewind]

... how much did he tell you?

[Because that was kind of embarrassing there.]

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

Not much... But I know how you were when you left.

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[ledbythewind]

It seems like I'm still alive somehow, thanks to Sanji, Asbel and Miss Tear.

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

And you better fucking stay that way.

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[ledbythewind]

Is that a threat?

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

D-damn right it's a threat!

In fact, you better be... better when you get back. Or there'll be words. Words.

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[ledbythewind]

Will I be sent to bed without supper as well? I'm not sure I can stand going without dessert.

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

Fuck yeah you will.

So just... rest up and shit.