fifteenth breath ✧ voice

[musubi]

[Filtered to Raphael // hackable]

Hey... Raph?

C'n you... c'n you come to my place? Maybe?

I think I did somethin'... I... Just...

...Okay?

[Forward-dated to late evening. Takes place after this and after/during this.]

Comments

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[meanandgreen.livejournal.com]

What do you expect me to do? Huh? Drink myself stupid? 'Cause obviously you think that's a great idea.

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

I-I dunno! Keep an eye on him, maybe? [Man, raising his voice is painful. He buries his head in his arm.]

...Bastard.

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[meanandgreen.livejournal.com]

[Raph laughs once, sharp and bitter, folding his arms.]

Typical.

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

It's not the same thing, man... At least he's still there for you to talk to...

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[meanandgreen.livejournal.com]

I know it ain't the same.

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

I really... [He swallows, face still covered.] I really don't wanna argue right now.

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[meanandgreen.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I know. [He lets out a breath.] Sorry.

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

Makes me wonder why you'd think I'd be the better company.

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[meanandgreen.livejournal.com]

Yeah, you're right. Forget it. [He pushes himself out of the chair and scoops up his sai off the floor with a clatter.]

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

[At that, Isamu reaches abruptly to try and grab him by the wrist, even though the movement makes him feel nauseous.]

Don't walk out on me like that. ...Please.

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[meanandgreen.livejournal.com]

[Surprisingly, Isamu makes the grab, and Raph doesn't make any sudden moves to rid of it. He just glowers down at him in angry surprise.

He shifts the sai in his hands with a metallic noise, uneasy, then pulls away.

The outside air pulls him with an unseen force, but his feet refuse to move.]

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

I... I don't care if you leave. I don't. Just... not like that.

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[meanandgreen.livejournal.com]

[His free hand winds into a fist, making the muscles in his arm bulge with tension.]

I need some air.

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

[Isamu releases his hold slowly, turning to glance away from Raph.]

...Fine. Whatever.

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[meanandgreen.livejournal.com]

It's-[Raph sets his jaw, speaks through gritted teeth. His fingernails bite into his palm.] It's not you.

[Then he starts pacing the room like a caged tiger. Forward, then back again, glaring at the floor. He turns on his heels once more before he can speak again, before it makes any hint of sense. Still, he tries to keep his voice at a low growl for Isamu's sake.]

You wanna know why I can't go back? You wanna know why I'm sittin' here, babysittin' your sorry ass? This. This's why.

[He stops, grimaces at his own pent-up frustration.]

You keep me here and I'm gonna punch a hole through your freakin' wall.

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

It'll repair itself.

[He rubs at the back of his head.] I shouldn've stopped you. Go out of you need to. I'll be fine.

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[meanandgreen.livejournal.com]

[That eases the tension enough to stop pacing.]

I'll come back.

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

Sure, man.

[He won't hold you to it, though.]

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[meanandgreen.livejournal.com]

[If anything, Raph's a man of his word. He may do a lot of running, but he always, always comes back. Just give him a few hours to clear his head, think things through with the help of a little physical exertion, because nothing makes sense when he stays in one place.

A few hours later he'll return, quieted and smelling of forest, just like he promised.

He's got nowhere else to go, but that's not the only reason he keeps coming back.]

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[causeblocked.livejournal.com]

[Isamu will be asleep again when he gets back, but this time he's made it to his bed.

He's also opened a window, letting in a little fresh air.]